It takes work...

Well my first 2 weeks of school went well! Since I have had this all before, I feel like I am way ahead of the rest of the class... I have still been very busy studying and doing homework. And last night it paid off when I was a 100 on my first exam!

As for Curtis, he really has no idea how proud of him I am! Since going back to school, he has worked his butt off and it is paying off. His program is divided into 3 month quarters (instead of semesters). Once a new quarter starts, the school does an awards ceremony from the previous quarter and for the 2nd qtr in a row, Curtis has received Highest Honors and this time he got Perfect Attendance (which he should have gotten last time but he was 15 minutes late one day).

I don't expect this is to come easily and we are both working very hard. Going back to school has been an oppurtunity for a 2nd chance and fixing so many things we did wrong the first time around and we are taking full advantage of that.

In other news...

I am still waiting to O so no TTC update right now. My RE appointment is quickly approaching though! Curtis had a dentist appointment Wednesday for his bad tooth and it looks like he is going to have to have more work than we planned on. He goes back on the 6th to have the bad one pulled and we will go from there.

Things are very different around here lately. Our relationship has been stronger than it has been in a long time. We are working together more on things around the house and overall, we are just closer as a couple. Everything is finally starting to fall into place and I am very grateful for that!

Fresh start

After a 21 day LP and a 61 day cycle, AF came on her own yesterday. No medication needed!!! This is the first time in a year and a half I haven't had to take Provera to induce AF! I would have much rather had a BFP but this is good too... So I will continue to take Vitex and will be trying Evening Primrose Oil and probably Pre-Seed this cycle, along with a possible BD marathon. I haven't decided completely yet though... I may just stick with the Vitex and see what the doctor has to say next month.

I had orientation for school last night and will be starting class Monday evening. My graduation date is March 16, 2010 WOOHOO! I am excited, nervous and anxious all at the same time mainly because I don't know what to expect from this program.

Curtis is doing well with balancing school and work... he ended up with all A's again last quarter! I am so proud of him!! He loves his job, which is a huge plus... T-Mobile has been a great company to work for thus far and they really seem to take care of their employees!

Everything is going pretty well here... our fingers are crossed for a March/April baby!

BFP or AF

Either will do at this point... I would LOVE to have a BFP (of course) but hey, if AF wants to come on her own, I won't bitch. It's been over a year since I've had a non-Provera induced AF so to get her on my own would be a blessing. FF says I am now 17 DPO and I have 3 BFNs to show for it. I'm done testing for now... I'll probably test a couple more times before my doctor's appointment next month if I don't get AF before then but hopefully, she will show up! I've decided to stop obsessing over this (well I'm trying) and see what the RE has to say.

I will be starting school at Texas School of Business next Monday (woohoo!) and Curtis goes back to school this week. Between his work schedule, school for both of us and me babysitting, it's going to be pretty tiring around here but all very worth it! We still aren't sure when (or if) we will get the kids this summer... I'm pretty upset about that. I miss the boys soooo much!!

Emotional Rollercoaster

I'm a mess! For the last week, I have been an emotional mess... I go from being perfectly happy to pissed off to upset and back to pissed off in about 5 minutes. I don't know what's going on but it's really exhausting! Poor Curtis... he is trying so hard to be patient with me but I know this is wearing on him quickly. I feel so bad but I don't know what to do. =(

I tested Thursday morning - BFN but FF moved my CHs so now I'm only 9DPO instead of 14 so we will see what happens. If my temps stay up, I plan to test again probably Tuesday (12DPO). Tuesday is also my late Papaw's birthday... maybe I can give him a happy birthday present... or he will give me one (depending on how you look at it). I know he is watching out for me... I miss him sooooo very much! Ok not sure I got on that tangent but back to reality. I have been having quite a few symptoms but who knows... my body may just be playing tricks on me. If that's the case, it can stop anytime now!

8DPO

And BF-freakin-N! I knew it would be... I'm so used to only seeing one line, I was prepared for it. I still had hope... I have been having some really weird feelings ine my ute area for the last couple days. I know I'm not out until AF actually shows so we will see what happens... I will just be happy if she does show. I have an appointment with an RE coming up soon so even if I don't get a BFP, maybe will know what's going on soon!

In other news, Curtis' new job is going great!! He really enjoys it so that makes it that much better! The store he will be at finally opened today so he has been working like crazy the last 2 days to get it set up and ready but for some reason, their internet isn't working so they still can't function. They are at a kiosk in the mall and there is another store on the other side of the mall so they are sending customers to that store for now so the company isn't losing business. I just think it's stupid that they are "open" when they can't funtion... whatever I'm just glad he's working!

Where are you July?

Yes I am looking forward to July already... I have an RE appointment July 7th at 11am!! I am excited/anxious... I went ahead and made the appointment today and I'm glad I did. When I called, the lady told me the next available appointment wasn't until June 15th! We are waiting on insurance now... that's why I made the appointment so far out but I would not have been a happy camper to have to wait a month longer! lol I am just sooooo ready to get some answers because my chart sure as hell isn't providing any.... it looks like a trainwreck! I think Curtis is a little freaked out by all this though... we have talked about it but now that it's happening, he doesn't know what to expect. Plus, he has never had to go down this road so I think it weirds him out a little.

His new job is going GREAT! The benefits are amazing and he really seems to like it there! One of our friends from AR came to visit last week and we had a really good time but he did not want to go back home last night... poor guy! We did find out we won't be getting the boys this summer as planned... really long story but in short, Curtis' ex-wife is just being a bitch as usual. I feel so bad for Curtis... he is so upset about it but trying not to show it. Hopefully, come next April this won't be an issue anymore.

Otherwise, there isn't much going on around here... just trying to get back to normal (whatever normal is).

Maybe...

Curtis started his new job today at T-Mobile today!!!! WOOHOO!! There hasn't been much going on around here... just trying to get back to some sort of normalcy. We should have insurance soon so I can go back to the doctor and try to figure out WTH is going on with my body!

Well, that's about it.. we have company this week so I still probably won't update much so until next time...